Burning Man #1

This will be the first of most likely many posts related to Burning Man.  What is Burning man you may be wondering… isnt that the drug fueled orgy in the middle of the desert where everyone is naked all the time?  Isnt that the hippie festival where everyone is dirty and smelly because there are no showers?

The short answer:  No.

The long answer:  Sure…


Officially this is what Burning Man is: Once a year, tens of thousands [68,000] of participants gather in Nevada’s Black Rock Desert to create Black Rock City, dedicated to community, art, self-expression, and self-reliance. They depart one week later, having left no trace whatsoever. Burning Man is also an ever-expanding year-round culture based on the Ten Principles.

Ultimately what it comes down to is following your own arrow.  If you want to turn it into a drug fueled orgy, I’m sure that there are people there who will likely help you out.  If you want to focus on the personal hygiene of other people then you will find all the dirty smelly people…  But if you go with an open mind, ready to accept anything that is thrown at you and not judge with pre-conceived notions you will have the most amazing time.

Last year was my first burn and I had no idea what to expect.  I had heard stories from both extremes, some people telling me how it is just one huge desert orgy to others saying how I will be completely miserable with the head and constant sand storms.  Everyone who tried to prepare me for the BM experience had it completely wrong.  It’s not something that you can prepare for.  It’s something that you just simply need to experience and if you do, jump in feet first.  Wear that tutu.  Dont be afraid to be naked if the mood strikes.  Ride out to the trash fence and contemplate what is beyond.  But most of all be ready for nothing.  Let it hit you and revel in it.

Games #1

I’m not sure when or where I became obsessed with collecting every single game that looks cool whether or not I believe I will ever play it. I *WANT* to play ALL my games but realistically I don’t think I will ever play half of them simply because they are so complicated and I don’t have a hardcore gaming group that a lot of the games require.  I think there are some that I have that are borderline (Myth, Zombicide, Space Hulk) but then there are others that mostly fall into the 4x category (explore, expand, exploit, and exterminate) that I dont think will ever see the light of day (Robotech, Hegemonic, Warhammer 40k) as much as I would love them to.

Now, don’t get me wrong.  I have TONS of other games that we play on a weekly basis and we have a blast doing that.  This week we played Story War, a party game where you make up a story based on cards you play to describe how your team would beat the other team.  Pretty fun but ruthless in a competitive group…  Last week we played Dungeon Roll, a dice only game that I think we played completely wrong.  It seems like there is supposed to be more structure to the game and what we played was very unstructured and easy…  I think we did something wrong.

Then, yesterday I go and buy two more games… Epic Spell Wars: Battle Wizards: Duel at Mt Skullzfyre and Forbidden Island.

eswbwdms                        forbidden

Both look fun and Sarah (work friend) recommended the second one but did I really need two more games?  Especially when things are a little tight because of the time I had to take off work with no pay.  Ah well, whats done is done.  Fun will be had regardless of the immediate minor pain.

My gaming shelves now boast 156 games…  holy smokes!  When did that happen?  and I still have several on the way from various Kickstarter campaigns.  At least they are fun…  hahahaha



Dentistry… what can I say about the dentist?  I can say that I hate the dentist.  That no matter what happens, I always have to pay hundreds of dollars out of pocket because my teeth are so bad. It’s not that I dont brush them… I brush them every day (bad breath is horrible… dont let it get you) but most of my problems stem from my previous military dental work.  Now, mind you, it’s all 20+ years old so not only is it old work, it’s old techniques.  It would probably all need to be redone anyway regardless of military work or not.

My mouth is mostly filled with crowns.  11 of my teeth have crowns on them.  Sheesh…  ah well, better than the alternative of missing teeth…

And that brings me to the present.  My bottom right canine (owwwwwwww) teeth got infected and needed to be worked on.  Of course, it needed a crown. (Maybe my dentist really likes crowns..)  And of course it’s not just a simple crown, I have to have a crown lengthening.  I HATE the crown lengthening procedure where they have to cut away your gum to expose more tooth.  I especially hate it now because I think I got an infection from the procedure and have to go back in this afternoon to have them look at it and see what is going on with my swollen saliva gland under my tongue.  Of course, this all comes after all the time off I have taken and I will need more time off in the future.  When it rains it pours.

ANyway, it’s now 10:00 and I leave here at 2:00 for my 3:00 appointment…  5 hours till I get looked at because I want to meet with Eddie.  We have been missing each other every time we want to meet and this mentorship is not going to work if we never meet.

Hello World!


Gotta start somewhere…  Nothing better than the classic Hello World (code monkey to the rescue!)

10 print “Hello World”
20 goto 10
30 win a million dollars

This is where the hard part comes in… trying to find something interesting to write about.  I never seem to be able to find something to write about event hough I should be able to find a TON of material.  I’ve lived an interesting life.  I’ve served proudly in the USMC, I’ve spent the past 20 years in this Society for Creative Anachronism, I ride a motorcycle, I’m planning on moving to NZ in a 2 years (visiting next year), I’ve been to burning man and am going back again this year (40 days!!!!), I’ve been fighting depression and anxiety for a very short time (6 months to a year), I am married to my soul mate and have an amazing son.  My life is pretty spectacular…  so why cant I find a subject that interests me enough to write about?

Maybe because all I can think about is my muscles and how sore they are from my meds and how all I want to do is curl up and go to sleep.  Not to escape but because thats really the only time my legs are comfortable.  I think it has to do with the Lexipro that they added to my medication regime.  Stretching helps a lot so I should really do more of that.  But the side effects are soooo much easier to deal with than they were before the Lexipro because at least with the new meds I am generally happy :-)

I recently went on a couple weeks of disability to try and get my anxiety under control and I think I was mostly successful.  I was really glad to be back at work though.  I do really enjoy my work and being at home for 3 weeks, while nice and relaxing, was harder than I thought it would be.  I enjoy the camaraderie that exists here at my job.  I enjoy being a productive member of a team.  I think that this is what made it harder to deal with my depression because I didnt want to be friends with anyone and I was anything BUT productive.  Things are much better now.

Not bad for a post that started out with nothing to say :-)